So, I’m Gay.

I apologize for the lack of communication lately. The savage beasts we call Gus and Sue (the pups) chewed through my computer cord so my internet access is limited. And since I have yet to figure out how to update my post via my old school phone (ie. no full keypad) my posts will continue to be erratic and lengthy. Well, maybe.

So I bet you all are wondering about my subject line. “She’s been ranting about men for months” you’ll think… “now she thinks she’s gay!”

I wish. If I had been the least bit gay my college years would have been extremely different and far more sexually charged since I went to a womens college. (GO SALEM!)

No, but last night after I got home from rehearsal I got a text from a very very dear friend of mine asking if she could come over because she had something extremely important to tell me. Me being the pessimist and worrisome person I am of course freaked out but she assured me it was nothing bad, just something personal.

I set on my couch reading Eclipse (yay! I’m almost done!) letting my mind linger over the things that it could be. She’s pregnant, nah… she wouldn’t be happy about that. She’s moving? No… she wouldn’t like that either. She’s taking me to Vegas with her for her 21st birthday! Wait, no, thats not personal… that’s selfish ::sheepish grin::

So what could it be. Well, she could be gay. I thought. But the idea didn’t make sense to me. I’ve known this girl for nearly a decade… and although when she was younger I might have considered it an option as of late she’s been very very boy crazy.

She showed up and set down on the couch, begging me to tell her what I thought it was because she said the look on my face told her I had already nailed it.

“Nope,” I said shaking my head. “Just tell me.”

“So…” she said kind of grinning. “Um… So, as you probably know I’m gay.” She sighed in relief. “You’re the first person I’ve actually said it out loud to.” I couldn’t help but smile and be extremely flattered.

We continued to talk about how long she had known. The girl she was currently “talking to” and why she decided to finally come out. We talked about her family and how she was planning to come out to them… and how she felt a little odd about being extremely out there.

I nodded, smiled, listened and commented when needed.

I love this girl dearly and I am so very proud of her. I’ll be right there with her through all of it if she’ll have me.

And so that concludes this post. another follows soon… I hope.

~ by kirbyrice on April 10, 2009.